Prayers half-answered

Seems like there is really no hope for me to get into that course this year.

I have no letter, no e-mail, and the Joint Acceptance page is still barring me from entry.

The first batch (and probably the last) of JC acceptants have just gotten their tea party e-mails/letters and also a blank slot on the Joint Acceptance page.

Actually, not surprising since their grades are so much better. While they are somewhere 75% to the top, I'm just right at the bottom of the earth (short of failure to entry to hell). I wonder if Mew has gotten hers. Her grades are around the same as these guys.

I am feeling a little resentful, but I guess I can't be complaining eh? That's because I simply do not have the right to.

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Anyway, been to Polyclinic, and back.

I went through 2 doctors today just because I felt that the first seems too nonchalant in her attitude to give me a referral letter straight. Come on, a earblock and you ask me to see a specialist which is going to charge between $50-70 at one sitting??

I am also concerned because this is not the first time they referred me. Recently, they referred me for a menstrual problem, but the referral in that case was warranted for.

Heck, I should have just went to the clinic at Tampines to get a better diagnosis than this! I could have cleaned my ear out too like the last time round, and it'll definitely be less than what the specialist charges.

I think these doctors are too casual with their profession. They just think, "oh, diagnose and ok my job is done to clear out the queue". They don't really emphasize with your concern. This is especially true with the 1st doctor. I can sense out if a person is genuine or not. There's something called "body language" and "voice", things that shows your inner emotions and are not easy to hide.

I actually cried because I felt that I was being wronged for once. My inner voice told me I didn't deserve this referral at all. I decided to seek a second opinion from mom.

Mom suggested to see a certain doctor. I was pretty hot-headed for a while, but I kind of calmed down and decided to listen to her. I am glad I did, and am also glad that she decided to come along with me.

We were right, the 2nd doctor was more precise and actually gave a better diagnosis. Not only because it was more hopeful, it was more accurate and contrary to what the 1st doctor said, the polyclinic actually had the expertise to treat blocked ears! The only thing was, which doctor could do it!

I am keeping a mental note that the doctors located at a certain side, as well as that 2nd one, would be more trustworthy than the general rooms.

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I feel so much better now, letter or not. My ears are definitely going to get better again! That's the definition to happiness for me today!

I guess what's important is to do what I should be doing right now. I need to clear off the junk of overdue mathematical assignments that I imposed on myself. That is, after I clear off my housechores at home, and collect mail from the mailbox later.

I know that today, I will not get a letter.

Tata for now.