One-month vacations are back!

And it's the first proper one we have since O levels.
No more worries about results and where we are heading to (JC or poly).

I decided not to go for the NYAA because of money matters.

SC elects are going for a leadership camp during the June holidays, and that includes me. Can't wait for it. Better finish all the holiday homework before I can put my entire mind to it.

The problem with homework is that it gives a lot of worry for me if I do not do it as soon as possible, and thus my mind is not focused on what I want to really do at the current moment, hence the "blurness" problem.

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Also, is my problem with being "silent and passive most of the time" starting to cause problems with people I interact with? One of the SC seniors dropped a tag on my election blog to advise me to speak more with people, including them, and not give the silent treatment. They got the wrong idea...and its my fault...

Really, I don't know what to say most of the time. People tend to talk about trendy things, such as the latest songs or even about the cutest boy in the school. I am super unknowledgeble in such things. People may talk about TV programmes, but the problem is, my home has a curfew on TV, not for me but more for my brother, who slacks a lot. And I have to conform to that because I'm the eldest and need to set the example.

As a result, I may seem to be living in a world of my own. But really, I'm not.

Or maybe I'm just afraid of being myself. Just because the twins draw better than me doesn't mean that I should give up on drawing manga characters now. I tend to rub off my drawings off my notes everytime I think of it. And just because I am not like the rest means that I should give up on being myself.

Emptiness...

I don't really know you (and maybe many other people in the class) really well...
But why do I get the feeling that this class will never be the same again when you leave?

Been feeling somewhat empty nowadays. June holidays are coming, but why wasn't I expecting it at all?
June holidays. It seems so short now that I cramped most of my activities in it. Leadership camp, etc...and to study with my cousin while staying at my grandma's home nearby.

Thinking about signing up for NYAA but what new skill to learn? To learn an art of self-defence like taekwondo or a new language like Japanese? Not musical because I am kind of sick of it (I already know how to play the piano and erhu). Maybe I should take an old tip from Leo and go get a Diploma in Information Technology. But I hate to use the computer for long hours, and the Diploma is expensive to get.

ADD-ON: After being given some advice, think should go for computing skills for NYAA.

Anyway, Mewie and Twiggy, why nowadays we all are so busy? Miss the times we were together, talking, playing, studying, eating, reading Manga, and watching Inuyasha...
Maybe we had to "graduate" from being seperated into different classes to now being seperated into different schools? Whatever it is, I accept it.

But we need to meet up one day to eat sushi!!!

Thumbs up to Mind-maps =)

Obtained a little lecture session online about Co-responsibility just now (no, nobody scolded me). If everyone in an organisation is responsible for something (eg. keeping the school clean), and not doing things (eg. picking up litter) just because of empathy, there won't be problems with that something at all, and all will stand to benefit anyway.

This weekend has been quite good, took the time to finish all my homework and also made a Mind-map for the Biology chapter on Lipids. It's about 95% done at this point of time, need to write up about the advantages of storing triglycerides over storing carbohydrates and glycogen before it's fully done.

Mind-maps. Ms Leo made me realised how dead useful Mind-maps are, especially for Biology, one of my weakest (but one of my least hated) subject in Secondary school. For one, I have a short-attention span (cannot stand flipping through notes the way my cousin does it non-stop. She happens to be more hardworking than me and thus went to a top 5 JC), and secondly I am a visual learner (this means I learn better with colours and pictures). I was initially apprehensive of mind-maps in my secondary school days because I am too lazy to write them out.

It's getting late so gtg...

Super Sotong Me

A "blur Student Councillor"...the comment still keeps bugging me 5 hours after Ms Leo made it...Haiz. What can I say to defend myself?
I guess I can do something about it. This blurness is related to low confidence in my knowledge and sleepiness (I don't listen to details as well when I'm tired).
So the first thing I'm going to do is to relax this weekend! Something really much needed since the Sea Sports Carnival took off most of my energy for this week.

Maths test was horrible...I dunno what to say...I need to practice more that's all.
I think the most important thing about tests is that they reveal the gaps in your knowledge, and then it's your responsibility to identify them and work on it to perfect your understanding of the topic.
Something which I haven't been doing X_X

Gotta go work on it. But I need to have some fun first or I will be a nervous wreck.

And I got the free hosting account from Netrulon! Finally! 3 months was quite a wait for a free hosting account...now maybe I can design websites. But where got time? Still got PW stuff. So laterz.

Homework that doesn't taste good

Bio Mind-map
Bio Structural Qns
And then revision for Maths Common Test---Trigonometry

X_X

And the side dish is the inedible Maths Sketching worksheet. I have no appetite for that one.

And tomorrow, there will be chemistry tutorial. And I have yet to read up the online tutorial for Ideal Gas Law...
And now I have gotta log out soon.

Bon appetite? -_-;;

Homework homework homework

Haiz.
Still got Essay Outline for Biology to do, Maths worksheet to do, GP Essay to do, GP news journal to do.
At this rate...sigh...
But I really want to study and do well! 1 and a 1/2 years is really too short to be in a "slacker's mood" in JC...
But it seems like my mindset is not the same as the others...

Been spending at least 4 hours searching for GP essay material...later still need to use computer to draw out graph...I'm already getting so sick of using the computer for homework for today liao...

A small discovery

I was playing with my sister again. She's a year old. Her usual style was to hug her toy plushies and dolls whenever she sees them. She had a fond liking for this special one doll.

Today was unusual. She took the doll and threw it out of her playcot to me. She did this for a couple of times. I was puzzled. I kept acting with the doll, to make it seem very sad about being unwanted. I don't know why but my sis kept laughing (maybe it was me and my crappy acting, I kept laughing a bit).

Then she pointed to one part of the doll. I saw what she meant. I pull up the doll's left sleeve to reveal the hidden arm and gave it to her. This time the offer wasn't rejected. She gladly hugged the doll.

Moral-of-story: Children are born not knowing how to accept people that are not normal. Like the "doll without a hand"?

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Someone's been impersonating me. Since when did I become a les-?
People and their crazy ideas @_@;;

Taking Criticism and Setbacks...

I know of somebody who loves criticising.
And comments are generally (and indirectly) targeted to me.
Not that I hate criticism, I prefer it to the shallowness of hypocrisy.

But it really makes me wonder about these sort of people. Are they just trying to release their spite on others, being the sadistic kind? Or are they just trying to attract attention?
Maybe I just shouldn't give a damn to these sort of things. No point wasting my energy.
Also, since those comments were supposed to be a personal thing, I think I should just ignore it. We've got to respect others' freedom of speech...
But really, next time I run for election or something along that, at least I know what's coming up for me.

Today, I met a friend who told me about their campaign posters being "altered" mercilessly, to the extent that pictures of their faces were gone. I empathize with her. It is heartaching to see your posters in an awful state after bravely pasting it out there in one corner of the school.

I'm just thankful that I didn't paste photos on mine.

Same thing again, what kind of people are these? One that loves to create misery for others without putting themselves in others' shoes?

All I can do is to remind myself that these people inevitably exist in our world and all we can do is to handle such setbacks well.

What else can we do?

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Also, I think me being super silent in school is starting to scare me. It's an indicator that I'm not following my lessons well. I'm super lost in Trigonometry and Biology.
X_X
For Chemistry, I'm still pretty much on track, except for that old problem on Ideal Gases, much thanks to Ms Lee's fantastic tutorials [and the twins who have been very helpful =)].

Canoeing today

Canoeing is fun!
More fun than dragonboating in my opinion =)
And we capsized the canoes on purpose!

That's enough of fun for the week, coz I've got the Individual Proposal, GP news article, Maths Assignment and Biology BC2 (SPA stuff to read up) to do...
Also on the revision list is Maths Trigo for the Maths lecture test this week...
Gotta get serious >=)

Sports Day

Yay! The 12 of us from 05S07 who ran for the 12x100 metres got a bronze medal each! At least we have a present to bring back home with us! Congrats and well done to everyone who ran the race! This is the first time I have ever taken part in a Sports Day event so I was very very happy (even though I probably looked tired or in a daze back then after the results are announced).

Also went bowling with 5 classmates, am getting the hang of it even though I fared as one of the lousiest in the 2 games. Hope to play a better game next time =) We also had fun playing around with the "Edit Name" functions on the machine...one name became Jessica, later Uncle, and another Ah Long. Haha. (Mine became Puddy and then Pudding).

Also, MJC happened to have Sports Day today also. They had lessons in the morning and had Sports Day in the afternoon. I'm happy enough that there aren't any lessons today (or we will be tired out too much).
The only question is: who copied who?

My life is changing

I dream of a lot of things...
I was the silent dreamer.

Back then in Secondary School, I'm just a nobody.
Just some girl who's at the last 3 or 4 of the class every major examinations.
Just some girl who keep failing Higher Chinese.
Just some girl who neglected her studies after being depressed and indulged in computer games, forums and websites.
Just some girl who is a misfit in her class of smart people.
Just some girl who the teachers probably never want to care about.
Just some girl who is a plain member of the Chinese Orchestra, some boring CCA in the school where there is a lack of guys.
Just some girl who the teachers think that do not have the potential to be a leader.
Just some girl who never talks unless the teachers prompts her to in class.
Just some girl who is ill-informed about the challenges and how CCA points work in Secondary School.
Just some girl appearing as either emotionless or sad most of the time.
The only thing to be proud of was that I was in an SAP school, in Special Stream.
Yet I felt dismay as word goes round that other neighbourhood schools appeared to improve quickly.
The high moral standards just seemed to keep dropping year after year.
What just happened to my school?

Things are now different.
I started contemplating about the past in MI and TPJC, two schools I had never expected myself to be part of in the first place.
Two schools where I found happiness.
The sleeping dragon in me has been half-awoken from slumber.
I'm now a somebody who tries her best to keep up with lessons and not neglect them no matter how hard it is to understand them.
Somebody who wants to be proud of her school.
Somebody who wants to be part of the action and not wait for things to happen.
Somebody who's running for Student Council.
Somebody who don't want to be quiet all the time.
Somebody who wants to make the best out of the 2 years she had been granted, to repent for the lousy performance in her previous school.
Somebody who wants to be part of the class.
Somebody who is starting to appreciate Chinese lessons the way it should have been for her.

Yet something I know hasn't changed inside me.
I'm still pretty much the dreamer as always.
But now one who wants to turn dreams into reality.

Stupid Me

I am so darn stupid.
I gave away our school identity by wearing a green PE Tee on the day of the Dragonboat outing.
(Apparently AS' father was there for Dragonboating also. Who is AS? You have gotta guess coz I'm not telling.)

TPJC Chinese Orchestra obtained Silver for SYF (if the info in the forums is correct). Not bad at all, since they didn't have any Pipa players to start with.
AHS CO wasn't short of any group of instruments 3 years back, yet we got only a bronze. This year however, we got a Silver.

I'm loving the life at TPJC. Studies are less stressful and Chinese lessons are slow-paced (At least nobody seemed to look down on me). No regrets taking Higher Chinese though, it is an insurance for the University admissions (I got D7).
Although I have my grudges against my own Secondary school in the past, somewhat I'm starting to miss the good times there. I have best friends who I can really depend on even though we are seperated by a classroom and two walls. My CCA had fun times.
Now I am wondering what happened to my ex-class people and ex-CCA friends, even though I didn't really like some people in my previous class. Maybe I will go message them on MSN one day.

Class outing #2

Went dragonboating instead of canoeing.
Lots of insane stuff happened today.

btw, to anyone who have suffered as a result of my stupid ideas or suggestions, I'm very very very sorry for it...been feeling guilty about it for the rest of today X_X

We have both sun and rain today...what a great deal :-/
Yet it was a very fun day for us...to the rest who didn't come along, wish you were there.

[Note: The last part of the outing is not worth reading, seriously.]

The first part of today:

-We sang kiddy songs...(Row row row your boat/London Bridge is falling down)

-My legs got sunburnt (Luckily that's about it. Thanks to JY for sparing me some of your sunblock! =D)

-Some stranger thought Robyn was a bird...

The second part of today (Lunch):

-We got free flow of drinks after 1 hour of dehydration (yay!)

-???'s cheap specs...

The third part of today (Downtown East)

-100 metres dash to...???

-Arcade (Observed Para-para and car-racing)

-A short Magic Show

-Sports Shop?

-Bowling, but didn't get to do so. We were watching at some pros at their game while waiting for the rain to stop. One of them could make the ball bend in its tracks, and by doing so, hit all the pins 3 times in a row! He scored 227 points.

The last part of today (Secret Info, Location: ????? ??? ????)

-T????? o??? c?????g t??t w???? t????? ?? f?? (?????m?n) k???

-K???-?????? ?a? g???????? a ??op

-??r??a g?? ?e?-?p ??t? ?h? un???d??t??l? w???

-Climax: Rain again! X_X

-I ??? an ??? l??y us??? k??e to c???r h??d (s????st?d i??a la???)

-?ook ?h??t?? ?? s?m? ?t?ll, s??? ??? ???-?????

-Someone u?? k??? t? ????? ??? ???d

-W????? i? ??i?; t?e pair ?? ge??le??n g?? ??en??ed

-??????by: "??h? Fi??? t??e I ??e s???o?? ?s? k??? ??r s?????r."

-Finale: We all go home.