I spoke as though I was decided, but inside, I'm still not so sure. Perhaps time will be the deciding factor.
I really felt bad that I upset a couple of fellow alpha testers (and probably disappointed the devs/admins at the choice) at Aurose. At Bootex, friends were more understanding, but I was in a dillemia over a decision to disband the guild. Now at least I guess I can be in peace that word goes they will be doing fine till the last Bootex member there stands.
I'll leave Aurose around my Birthday (Memphis is the last person to contact for the Muse skills topic), for Maple early January because I'll need to get in-game to settle some stuff.
Whether I'll be back or not for either one of them, I'll leave it to fate to decide what's best for me.
Too many reasons to list out why I don't want to be in Maple and Aurose now. I couldn't explain to people in detail, it'll be a really long post so I'll just post them in the blog for myself:
- I felt that I have to quit games one day, I should attempt it as soon as I can.
- Too little time for too much to do. Or maybe let's just say that my time management skills sucks.
- I'm too "glued" to the computer, gaming makes the situation worse.
- I'm working at the moment for 8-9 hours with up to 2 hours travelling time, 5 days a week, I keep staring at a computer for most of the time, which leaves me hardly any time for a proper rest (gaming doesn't count, I still stare at the computer for it @_@). Can't break the contract too. Saturday, half the day is for Chinese Orchestra practice. Sunday's the only free day, which I have plans for instead of gaming from now on.
- I want to read more, learn more and increase my vocabulary. Both English and Chinese. My chinese standard is crap. English is just so-so, enough to converse and write coherently, but not write a good piece of article.
- Want to read newspapers everyday like what I did when I had absolutely nothing to do with the computer way back then. I know I'm crazy =P
- Want to go back to the doodling Manga-artist-aspiring days again.
- Read Mangas, watch Animes like what friends do.
- Pick up new skills. Maybe learn a new language.
- Maybe restore PokespecialTK back to the last update before I abandoned the project 2 years back.
- I want to concentrate on my Erhu and piano, since I have repicked up Erhu and would join the NUS exams with Mewie for Grade 5, and intend to continue piano again once I get into the mood to. And learn more songs by memory =D
- I want to study about photographic memory and getting it, if possible =X
- Get more sleep (the eyebags are showing)
